summer bummer

There is an insane amount of work that is to be done in a weeks time. Deadlines have to be met, and exams have to be studied for.

With all this work pressure, I see myself getting more and more relaxed and dreaming (cuz I’ve been sleeping too much) about what I am going to do during my summer break. Places I could go to, things I could do. Ideas I’ve never had are coming to my mind. When you have the tiniest bit of time to climb a mountain of work, why do 'then' the best thoughts, dreams and desires pop up in your head?? There is no way you can keep a track of them, and they wont stop coming even if you meditate – … not that I’m doing that either!!

A LOT is happening. Four crazy girls I know – namely adz, sra, ass n cp - leave APU f.o.r.e.v.e.r for better places (and better people??) My parents are dying for me to come back home so that my mom can come to Beppu with me in Sept (*oh, no no no*) weird incidents (??accidents??) have been happening to me in the last couple of weeks (one of them being going to a beautiful beach out in the ‘wild’), and a few more that I don’t wish to mention for various reasons - all I hope is that I can be sane till it all ends... or the summer break begins??

Lil’ thoughts and fears about summer vacations coming up nw. It is true that with all the people I hang out with going home or starting with jobs and higher studies, I won’t really have anyone here to “hang out” with. What am I going to do here?? – will I just die of boredom and run home as august draws to an end, or will I survive it all and have a great time?? Will I just lie in bed and sit on the net and put out my hair in the heat, or actually do some work, make some money and go some place cool?? too many questions and damn, I need to study right now…

Anyways, summer is here, and its going to get even hotter. I am already twice as dark as I was, and I can see myself turning charcoal by the end of August.
Much love to ya all.

p.s. I think its just the ‘heat’ talking…