Sometimes when logic prevails, we ignore our gut feelings, understanding later that a rational approach was only one way of determining the situation.
After much debate in my own head I took up a 9-to-5 job in a Japanese company as my gateway into the world. Between testing & cleaning machines and experiencing the comfortable life in sub-urban Tokyo I made peace with the usual office chores that almost all my friends are mentally (if not physically) doing with their lives in Japan.
I had taken up this job by looking at patterns in lives of people around me. While I associated myself with them I also convinced myself that the same is bound for me unless fate makes things happen.
Now, after one and a half years, I realize that we are never given anything unless we truly have the desire for it.
Fate, chance, luck - exists only in our hearts and minds to help us achieve what we want. But the first step into seeing that dream has to be ALWAYS done by us alone.
I decided to quit my job just before they moved me into the highly respectable Sales office so that I can pursue my dream of studying art.
At work some mates told me its crazy to QUIT a 'secured' in this economic situation while my bosses said its a crazy idea altogether to go school when I'm already making a living.
I know all of the above are true. But more than anything else I know I am not going to be one of those who lives their entire life only realizing in the last days that I could have been somebody had I done it differently.
Its always harder to do the right than the easier wrong.
What follows after 20th August might be an easy or a difficult set of experiences. But I know I will MAKE my own path, look back and smile at whatever was.
That was a very brave thing to do Shreya, but I really understand. I've made similar choices in the past, for the same reasons. Well done, and the best of luck!
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